My Time - May 2009

by Melissa Vanover



Why would one person endure so much pain in one lifetime, in any lifetime? So we’ll know how wonderful heaven is, or to have us feel a fraction of pain that God felt when he gave his only begotten son for this world.

How much pain can the human heart withstand? Why would one even want to cause another so much pain? Why would one allow for another to have the control to cause so much pain?

Loving someone gives him or her certain control—kind of like free will. Sometimes we lose that will, and become so consumed with that person we lose all of our will to do anything else, but be consumed.

Growing up, if all you’ve felt is some form of pain, whether it is emotional, physical, or mental, that becomes the norm for you.

Abandonment and molestation—two very devastating forms of abuse can determine your destiny. They both leave you feeling unworthy, unloved and unwanted; in turn making you feel less than, non-deserving, with no self-worth.

But what we don’t realize is that God and only God can heal the pain in our hearts. He is always there for us; he feels our pain. He cries right along with us and for us. It’s at that moment when we’re so broken, that we turn to God. We get so distracted by humanly things that we turn our back on God. We go through trials and tribulations as a smack in the face, a wake-up call if you will. God wants us to turn to him, and most of the time it takes the pain for us to do it.

It’s humanly hard for us to let go of things that have happened to us; we’re wronged and we hold that against ourselves and others until we turn bitter. Nothing turns to hate so bitter as what once was love—like being close to heaven and not allowed in.

So today I pray for all those who have been wronged, and I pray for those who have wronged us.

May we find strength in Jesus to no longer allow others to hurt us.

In his love . . .